Done, What’s That?

Is anything ever finished? It often doesn’t feel that way. We put so much emphasis on task completion and accomplishing goals that how we got there gets lost in the shuffle. At least I do that. I’ve always enjoyed crossing things off the list more than doing them. There’s such satisfaction with sitting back and…

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Living in the If

If. Two tiny letters. One small word. A huge impact. It’s a powerful word of condition, full of possibility and regret. In the future, if can make anything happen: If I get into my dream school . . . If I lose weight . . . If I win the lottery . . . In…

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The Perseverance of Getting Well

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about illness and it’s opposite – health. Or vice versa. When I first heard that I have Lyme, I didn’t believe it. (Was this denial, the first stage of grief?) Two blood tests came back equivocal, which means there’s something not right going on but they don’t know what.…

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This Was Supposed to Be a Quiet Summer

After two years of studying and getting back into teaching, I had planned to spend this summer working on my book, doing some daytrips, and going to back to Lithuania for a couple of weeks. Then two major issues sidelined those plans. 1) I found out I have Lyme Disease and Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever.…

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In the Stillness

Pausing, resting, stopping – in our fast-paced world even the slightest break in routine can feel underserved. We often feel that if we stop, maybe we won’t get going again, so it’s better to run ourselves ragged. A body in motion stays in motion, a body at rest stays at rest. This law of physics…

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Rooted Adaptability

Today is overcast and grey. I’ve never done well on gray overcast days. They seem to suck up my energy and make me lethargic and contemplative. I didn’t notice this about myself, however, until I lived in Russia for two years after college. The winters are long, cold, and grey in St. Petersburg. Everyone knows…

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Hazy Sick Induced Realty Shift (or a word that needs to be invented)

I’ve been battling a cold for the past week. The worst is over: the headache, stuffy nose, sinus pressure. The fatigue and brain fog still remain. Any time I get a cold I’m always “out of it.” Not just slow brain processing time, but as if I’m thinking differently. I’m not quite sure how to…

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Practicing Imperfection

Have I mentioned how much I love fabric? I don’t think so. Allow me to mention it. I love textiles. The feel – smooth, cool silk; cozy, warm flannel; crisp, strong cotton. The patterns and designs – each one a piece of art. The possibilities – a dress, an apron, a quilt? Yes, a quilt.…

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Maybe the Routine Isn’t the Problem

Last week was Spring Break. Everyone was ready for it. The students. Me. I was especially ready for some down time while battling this antibiotic that hopefully has killed the bacteria. (*See below for an update.) I love a break from my routine. I can easily feel confined by having to be at a certain…

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