Living in the If

If. Two tiny letters. One small word. A huge impact. It’s a powerful word of condition, full of possibility and regret. In the future, if can make anything happen: If I get into my dream school . . . If I lose weight . . . If I win the lottery . . . In…

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This Was Supposed to Be a Quiet Summer

After two years of studying and getting back into teaching, I had planned to spend this summer working on my book, doing some daytrips, and going to back to Lithuania for a couple of weeks. Then two major issues sidelined those plans. 1) I found out I have Lyme Disease and Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever.…

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In the Stillness

Pausing, resting, stopping – in our fast-paced world even the slightest break in routine can feel underserved. We often feel that if we stop, maybe we won’t get going again, so it’s better to run ourselves ragged. A body in motion stays in motion, a body at rest stays at rest. This law of physics…

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Rooted Adaptability

Today is overcast and grey. I’ve never done well on gray overcast days. They seem to suck up my energy and make me lethargic and contemplative. I didn’t notice this about myself, however, until I lived in Russia for two years after college. The winters are long, cold, and grey in St. Petersburg. Everyone knows…

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Practicing Imperfection

Have I mentioned how much I love fabric? I don’t think so. Allow me to mention it. I love textiles. The feel – smooth, cool silk; cozy, warm flannel; crisp, strong cotton. The patterns and designs – each one a piece of art. The possibilities – a dress, an apron, a quilt? Yes, a quilt.…

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The Wildly Unpredictable Hope of Spring

I always say that fall and spring are my favorite seasons – usually in the dead of winter or scorching summer when I’m looking forward to relief from extreme temperatures. But as the winter freeze begins to thaw, I find 80 degrees with glittering sunshine one day and 50 degrees with overcast skies and pouring…

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Anything Who Can Do

I’m pretty sure we’re all aware that the Winter Olympics started this last weekend. I love the Olympics, especially the Winter Games (ironic since I detest snow). My heart swells and I get teary-eyed watching the hopeful athletes march in with excitement and anticipation, especially from unlikely countries with only one or two athletes. I…

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Who Are the Privileged?

When I taught English in New York a number of years ago, I worked with another teacher who often talked about her privileged upbringing. I can’t speak for her intentions, only how it made me feel. Less than. Not good enough. Unworthy. I felt as though I didn’t deserve as much as she did. I…

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One Part of the Whole

Agree. This is one of those words that I automatically associate with its opposite – disagree. Agree has lovely images of harmony and unity, to be of one mind. This rarely happens. Several years ago, I worked on a committee with someone who routinely stated, “We can all agree that . . .” knowing full…

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